- Madeline Topf
"Closer to fine"
I've tried
reading, crying,
kneading, writing.
I've tried
dancing, running,
macrame-ing, meditating,
baking,
thinking, thinking, thinking.
It still fucking sucks.
When I carefully plaster on a hydrating mask
I don't feel better
happy, or more fulfilled
but I am trying. everyday I try.
I need to try. I need to try.
I need to.
I need to try
to be kinder, healthier,
for an inch more space in my mind,
for a bit more freedom
and a bit more not giving up
So when later we look back, when we are together again, we can laugh
